Currently Listening I Am Me By Ashlee Simpson L.O.V.E. see related

I QUIT XANGA!!!!! NO ONE EVER COMMENTS CUZ YOU DONT LOVE ME ANYMORE!!!! POOHIE ON YOU!!!!!! If you ever need to reach me, then go to facebook.com, myspace.com, email, or cellphone! No one loves me anymore and so im leaving for good! Have a nice like SKANKS!!!!!

Currently Listening Dutty Rock By Sean Paul see related

Im posting this because I felt so strongly about the situation and that I feel like this may help to some people(whoever you are). I read this and cried my eyes out! It was the saddest thing ive ever read in my life.

A true rape story
Body: A true rape story. read this. its disgusting.
Please, just listen. Im just a girl
Trying to shout out for help; or a hand
Please read; just listen
Look from my view; Try and understand?

I love my Dad; O Dear God i do
But some things i need to ask why
Because isnt my love in my heart
Good enough; He likes to see me hurt and cry?

It happens every week;
Since i turned eight years old
Please understand im thirteen and weak
This is an act; bravery and bold

I want to tell you; so much
So maybe one of you can help me?
I can't do this on my own; alone
So please im begging on my knees

Friday night; Pub night for Dad
So he forgets all about my Mom
Drinks till he can hardly stand
Sometimes a quick drink for fun?

Mom left me when i was seven and a half
But its all in the past; o i miss her though
I look at my father; crying
But when is it time; for his pain to show

Friday after a drink; he can stand and walk
Hes not out his face; tripping n fallin
"Jess get down these staires"
At 12 Midnight; Its not like him to call

Walking in my nighty; rubbing my eyes
My fathers sitting on the sofa with his friend
He pats the seat in the middle; i sit
Shivering so cold; a quilt he lends

"Jessy you love me dont you" a smile; his
Their breathe spirts weep
"Daddy you know i do; what is it?"
He smiles at his friend; his hand creeps

His friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyes
Daddys creeping up my nightie; cold hands
I try to pull his hand away; grip is strong!
They look at one another; nod; something planned

I feel my palms sweat; Daddys under my knickers
"Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling again
But there grip is to strong for weak me
I look at both; and ask, who are these men?

His fingers going up me; pulling away
His friend leans forward; a kiss? Why?
His toungue moving mine; my eyes squint
Lean back and away; "Why are you doing this?"

No answer, i feel the pain inside me; him
Chucks the quilt on the floor; me to
I try and scamper away, but im not fast
"O Daddy please, i love you"

His friend; pulling at my nightie
And my Dad pulling my pants down
His friend pinning my hands to the floor
As my Dad lies himself on the ground

I squirm; as Daddy friend pulls me up
And places me ontop of Daddy; thrusts within
I cry; i bite; i scratch; i slap; i fail
"O Daddy please you win you win!"

I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking free
I can feel the blood seep down my leg
"Daddy your hurting me please"
I plead to him and his friend; not even a beg

Daddys laughing; why does he laugh?
His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans
Tieing my hands togather; moving in and out
"Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groans

They smile at one another; laugh to
They roll me over and spread me wide
My daddy sits on my face; himself in again
While his friend talks and pushes himself inside

I can hardly breathe; i gag for air
I cough and splutter; cry and weep
I beg and plead; but its no use
Theyve already made me hurt and bleed

I stare into his eyes; that look upon me
This is not my Dad; where is he?
If he was still here; would he care
Would he actually even; see?

Finally they get off and lie me on the sofa
My cheeks blouchy from tears and pain
They play with them selfs; all over me
Rub it in; making me feel the shame

"Why Daddy? Please tell me why?"
Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away
"Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek
"Is that all you have in your heart to say?"

He puts my nightie on me
n walks me to my bedroom door
Ever since that night; His friend
And himself every Friday come back for more

"Night sweet Girl; You are my life"
Closing the door, tears still down my face
Still the smell of him and his friend
Fade into me like disgrace


I watch the Moon go down; the sun come up
"Jessy its school" Knocking at my door
I cant help but cry; weep in pain
Because im so scared he wanted more

But one night daddy took it too far
Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot
They were worried they would get caught
So he and his friend took me to a cemetary lot

I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back
"Daddy please!! Not tonight!"
Daddy and his friend both had their last fun
After that i tried to put up a fight

I begged daddy "Please no more!"
All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!"
Daddy unblindfolded me at last
He said I love you so much

He went back into the car and pulled out a bat
"Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!"
I was dead
After only one swing..........................

**Please if you care for all the children and women who have been raped repost this bulletin with the Headline"A True Rape Story"

Children and Women go through this everyday and the people that do this to them get away with it every time. Just imagine the pain and disgust that people feel when being raped. Being raped changes a persons life forever and they are never the same. -I have no words for this!

--pics from my bday party below

~Lyns

Currently Reading Sound of a Miracle: A Childs Triumph over Autism By Annabel Stehli see related

-I have been reading this book it seems like FOREVER! And I have to write a paper on it! Blah!

AT LAST, SPRNG BREAK!!!!!!! (the second time im doing this cuz the internet kicked me off.) So glad to be home and NOT at school! I have nothing to do tho cuz my friends are either in school, on vacation, or I just dont want to hang with them. Maybe ill go shopping. I need clothes and shoes, and so much more! haha!

Here are some pics: These pics are from my Birthday Party! Even tho my bday isnt for like another week or two. But oh well, theres nothing wrong with celebrating early, right? Well...my bday is going to be a little on the depressing side this year. Yes, im turning 20 which is awesome dont get me wrong, but the sad thing is, is that the majority of my friends will be GONE!! They will be gone to Chattanooga for Championships(izzy, sam, the only ones that I go to watch). Ever since I was like 15, Ive been spending my bday with the guard, whether I was performing or just watching, I was there. And this year, I prolly will not be there! *lyns pouts* So, here are the pics from my party!

Dawn and Me waiting to eat at Demo's!

Izzy and Me in BG Bowling!!!

Sam and Me in BG Bowling...This was Sam's first time EVER bowling! haha!

lol! And me in the car on the way home from Nashville!

My party was fun!! I just hope that my actual bday is good!!! Love you all and have a great week!!!

Currently Reading Sound of a Miracle: A Childs Triumph over Autism By Annabel Stehli see related

I am in a happy, tired, emotional mood today. Thats kinda weird but hey, its me!! I have had a very complicated week so far because I have realized that im not happy. I havent been happy in a long time. And the one thing that ive realized is that being here at MSU...well, I HATE IT!! I am wasting thousands, and thousands, and thousands of my parents money for NOTHING! I dont want to be here anymore!!!! But the semester is almost over and I guess I need to suck it up and deal with it, but if my grades dont improve, then im gone.

On the brighter note, here are some pics from when I went to the lake last wednsday!!!!

Jennifer, Adrienne, Eryn, Abby, and Me...Dawn was taking the pic!

Doing Charlies Angels!

Ok, this one is a funny one...we wanted to do a cute and silly pic so dawn decides that we just sit there and pretend we are laughing, but then we ended up laughing at not laughing...lol!

Us sitting, thinking...about life.

My Roomie and Me

And then the serious one...I really like this pic!!!

Well there you have it yall! My life for the week! Blah! Love Yall!!!

Lynz

Currently Reading Sound of a Miracle: A Childs Triumph over Autism By Annabel Stehli see related

The Sweetest Thing A Guy Could Do!!!!

girl: yeah... i thought you didnt have work
today...
-boy: one of my co-workers called in sick
-girl: oh okay! so ill see you around 7:30 then?
-boy: yeah! and babe?
-girl: yeah?
-boy: i love you
-girl: i love you too!
-boy: ok my manager is like looking at me so
yeah.... i gotta go.
-girl: ok bye
-boy:bye

2 hours later... the boy drives to his girlfriends
house

boy walks up to the door and rings bell

-girl: hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)
-boy:wassup... you ready?
-girl:um... wait... let me get my bag and we could go ok?
-boy:ok

they both watched a movie and ate dinner....
once they were done eating they head back to
the car but before she got into the car...

-boy:wait! can i blind fold you?
-girl: why??!
-boy:its a suprise
-girl: what kind of suprise?
-boy: a big one
-girl: okay but only if you promise me that you
will hold my hand while we're driving.
-boy: i promise.
-girl: ok blind fold me...

so they drove off........... and then they stoped.

-boy:ok we're here!
-girl: where?
-boy:wait let me walk you to the place!
-girl: what place?
-boy: somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on
the lips)
-girl: babe!...

the boy walks her to the place

-boy: ok.... let me take the blind fold off you
-girl: where are we?

he takes it off her and she opens her eyes and
sees the view of the city and at that same
spot...
thats where he first asked her to be his
girlfriend...

-girl: omg.... (tears come down)
-boy: why are you crying?
-girl: this is where you first asked me out...
-boy: what are you doing the rest of your life?
(he asked on his knees and after he says that.
..
behind him... in the air it says "will you marry
me?" in fireworks)
-girl: (tears come down faster)
-boy: i wasnt at work when you called me... i
was planning this whole thing!
-girl: get up!
-boy: yeah?
-girl: (kisses him)
-boy: is that a yes or a no?
-girl: yes

Isnt that just the sweetest thing you've ever read? I thought so. OMG! Im so busy this week, im going insane. And its only Monday! haha! Oh well, cant worry bout that!!

Now, im bored...

...dont know what to talk bout...

Things I Need To Do(even tho yall could care less):

1. Find editorial for english: im doing it on Hurricane Katrina

2. Do speech: im doing it on Winterguard cuz its the only thing i know a lot about and im doing it on Wedsnsday.

3. Do quiz and writing assignment for psy.

4. Read book for civ and write paper; due march 7. Have i read the book yet?!?!

5. Read book for CDI and write paper; due april 11

6. Get Party invitations ready and mailed out! YAY!!! Cant Waaaait

7. Get a new laundry bag: cuz mine broke! grrr!

Well there ya go! Im gonna go and NOT do any of these things! hehe! Love yaz

Lynsey

PS. My background it suppose to be like a vintage red and it wont show up, does anyone know why and how i can fix that?